quintet.

*smile*

family day.

i have decided that i am photogenic.bah.

meet-the-reena-day.

i finally can take photographs for two people! :D

it was fun at vivocity. it has been long. thanks, dear.

cable car.

moi!in a very rainy background.

darling anu et moi!

darling khad et moi!

the most proper shot we got. haha.

confused.

i am.
i really am.

attraction.
how fatal.
taureans do fall in and out love easily , dont they?
but they always give all they have. when they are in love.
and yet they move on to greener pastures.
sometimes, thorny.
what do i do?

you tell me you are starting to like me.
you are possessive of me.
and yet.

you are afraid.
and you are making me afraid.
go with the flow you say.
but you are running away from me.
and that is not fair to me, is it?

i dont know whether i am looking for anyone.
i am numb.
from giving.

so many requirements in commitment.
ready?
i doubt.

jack and the beansprout.

my days have been pretty filled up.
i mean, i have been having a life.
i know i went to vivocity three times, but that doesnt mean i dont have a life.

haha.

it is a big place.
i realise i didnt give any reviews on it.
very big, but more user friendly than suntec.
and it is pretty baby-friendly too.
rayn had a good time there.
and so did we!

the people at Fig & Olive saw me three times in a row. haha.
i am supposed to tell you about mr hot.
mr hot doesnt look good.
but he is hot, i say.
he drives a manual car.
but that is not all.
and it has nothing to do with his body.

oh, and i went to watch another wildrice production today, jack and the beansprout.
lots of laughter, good spirit, and good time spent.
:)

remind me.

to blog about how wonderful a day tuesday was, despite the rain.
about how wednesday was wonderfully spent with reena, and then rayn, amin,cutie and cutie's MIL.
about how i going back to vivocity for the thrid time today.
this time with my family(which includes my sisters my dad and rayn!)
about how i have finally found someone i think is hot.
how i have been splurging like crazy.
how i have a thing for dresses now.
oh and please remind me to upload photos and SEND them before my friends mull me.
hope zeinab and wai yin are doing well overseas.
:D

mr good mood.

thatz what rayn was when i went there at 11pm.
he put on a show for me for an entire 15 minutes!

so many smiles.
so much kicking of the legs.
so much flailing of the hands.
i love you darling.

mad monday.

mad it was!
mad with lots of love, laughter, joy and whatever else you relate with pure bliss.

spent it with the two people closest to my heart when it comes to friends.
people i have reached that state of comfort with, that they are practically family.
people i can be totally myself with, and not worry about being judged.
for they have known me. bad and good. every thing. they know. :)

and therefore, i spent a real happy day with them!
hehehe.
well, we didn't have a plan, as usual.
oh but we knew, we were gonna go vivo cos i had never been there.
but they form.

we just knew we had to meet.
and so we did.
we met at khadijah's house, where her grandma had cooked enough for 3 people.
it was good home-cooked food for lunch.
and since there was no one home, we pretty much had the house to ourselves.
felt damn cosy, and we were damn happy.
hehe. :D

then we made our way to harbourfront.
haha.
and then we shopped and shopped.
and i think yaya knows that when i start i cannot stop!

i was unstoppable.
haiz another 100 plus off my account.
i bought 3 tops, pretty pretty tops, a belt,eyeliner,nose stud, and a pair of ear rings.
haha good buys, all.
and good people to shop with!
did i mention that i love them?

oh my, i havent even mentioned their names.
khad and anu. (",)
on our way to harbourfront, khad spotted the cable car sign and asked if we wana go, and we like "OK!"
haha.
so fun.
and so we paid 10.90 each for a round trip and took a cable car.
haha amidst anu's screams of fear and imbalance initially.
but it moved slow enough to sooth her nerves.
i must admit i had flashes of mishaps, all of which didn't come true, thank god.
hehe.
pics up SOON.
:)

and then khad and i had to try so damn hard to persuade anu not to go for track training.
cos the heavens were not in favour.
but she was being stubborn
until her IC told her it was cancelled, at what?7 pm?
haha, and then, we went to have dinner at Fig & Olive.
food was not bad.
haha and then, the cake monster struck.
and we felt like having cake, and didn't help that Secret Recipe was nearby.
and it didn't stop us, the fact that we were very broke. :D

haha.
and then we went to LJS where i bought food for rayn's mum, cutie.
but they were like having a sudden onslaught of customers, and couldnt cope.
so we decided to take the time to sit in LJS and eat our freakadelically shiok choc banana cake!
and we got laughing gas there.
all because i was just sugesting that the guy is gonna catch us eating the cake, when he came to deliver the food.
it is one of those moments, where you dont know why youre laughing, but you cant stop.
khad and i were tearing alr.
haha.
but it was so funny.
and then we made our ways back.

keyboard.

do you know why the keyboard you are using now has letters so randomly arranged?
did you think it was because the inventor of the typrewriter didn't know his/her (haha who am i kidding?we know it is a HIS) alphabets?

well, my sister shared this with me.
when they invented the typewriter and arranged it alphabetical order, what happened was that those using it knew exactly where the alphabets were, and typed like fastest fingers first.
and the typewriter kept jamming cos of that.
to slow people down, the alphabets were deranged. ha ha i meant, they were dis-arranged. :)

how interesting.
but as advanced humans, we get used to everything dont we?
we still type like fastest fingers first.
haha except. ahem ahem.
sorry zeinab. hehe.
evil
:P

rain.hujan.mazhai.

dunno what it is in mandarin, but well we all know that it is reigning our lives this month.
barkath, blessings.
:)

makes it terribly difficult to go out.
but some time in march or something, when it is scorching hot, you are gonna be wishing it would rain.

you know what?i think pregnant women should stay home when it is raining.
i fear for them you know!
it is hard enough to walk without slipping when it is raining, thanks to those pretty shoes that don't have much friction or anti-slip.

i have a phobia when i see pregnant women walking on slippery surfaces.
siao ah?stay home and rest la!rain also wana go out!
hehehe. ok i understand, they may need to go out for some reason or other.
god, please take care of all the pregnant ladies during this rainy season that you have provided us!

time shortage.

i have wanted to say many things, but haven't found the time.
but i ultimately forget what i want to say.

maybe i will start with sunday.
by now, you must have figured out that my days have been revolving round rayn.
ha.
so that is exactly what happened on saturday too. :)

on sunday, however, i broke from the routine, cos i was supposed to go for a car wash for FOC 07.
however, the rain showed no mercy on us.
and we waited there from as early as 930 to 2 plus.
bonding it could have been, but then again, still a waste of time.
but i must say it was fun.
getting to know people you don't know is always fun. =))

i think. that it is impossible to describe rain.
like you just feel like, when you describe how heavy the rain was, people are not gonna get it.
cats and dogs just doesnt do it anymore. ha.
it is so difficult to describe the intensity of rain.
especially with the wind blowing, and being unable to open your eyes and all.

well thank you to fariza's dad, for saving us from the rain!

haha. i walked around with a red damn pail!oh well. there's a first time for everything.

theft.

SIMPLE HOME REMEDIES

1. If you are choking on an ice cube, don't panic. Simply pour a cup of boiling water down your throat and presto. The blockage will be almost instantly removed.

2. Clumsy? Avoid cutting yourself while slicing vegetables by getting someone else to hold them while you chop away.

3. Avoid arguments with the Mrs. about lifting the toilet seat by simply using the sink.

4. For high blood pressure sufferers: simply cut yourself and bleed for few minutes, thus reducing the pressure in your veins. Remember to use a timer.

5. A mouse trap, placed on top of your alarm clock, will prevent you from rolling over and going back to sleep after you hit the snooze button.

6. If you have a bad cough, take a large dose of laxatives, then you will be too afraid to cough.

7. Have a bad toothache? Smash your thumb with a hammer and you will forget about the toothache.

haha i am stealing this off another fella's blog, in case i get sued for copyright.
i am not a communications student for nothing.
i attribute.

today.

am done, i have bounced back, no?

haha guys, i took part in a tamil singing competition on radio.
i mean i am going to take part.
hahaha.

auditions next friday at mediacorp.

cheer me on.
hahaha.

hey, i wanted to say something disgusting.
my knee bruise has been reduced to what looks like pepperoni on pizza.
i am not kidding
hahahaha.

but my ankle is still quite weak, though i have kinda figured the technique of massaging my own ankle.
it is a need, i say.

today, i went back to school for badminton ISG.
it was a walkover.
the asses from CEE didn't turn up.
and then the rest of the day, i spent.
if you don't know what i was doing for the rest of the day, there is no use in you reading my blog.
ha.

oh, and i did something.
i went to library!
i borrowed 8 books!
spent good time with myself.
i like.
:)

13th december.

i am catching up fast.
haha.
hm. 13th december was spent yet again with the light of my life.

went driving first.
haha got up late, went without bathing.
but still.
i always smell good.
someone once told me that, no kidding.kekekeke.
and then, went over to see him!

oh my god,the rewards.

he was bloody TALKING to me.
and SMILING as if all he knew was how to be happy.
and a small observation was made that he seems to respond most to me.
haha i hope it wasn't an exaggeration.

and the four sisters, in the BIL's house.
talk, and more talk.
of relationships, of old times.
of suben.
of converting.
of acceptance.
and then, there was the warning.
"that doesn't mean you should talk to him. he may not be a good guy"
but why do i feel like i know otherwise in my bones?
am i wrong?

12th december.

haha. i am back to update about my life.
tuesday was a fun baby day.

we went to redhill, me, my dad, my sister, my brother-in-law(BIL).
to ummu's house.
and so i will launch into the story.
ummu and my sis are best friends.
ummu's husband, and amin(BIL) are very good friends.
so they are double-dating couples kinda thing.
and ummu and my sis gave birth 10 days apart.
ummu's a girl; my sister's, a boy.
haha, but the girl's older.

and ummu, her husband(dola), my sis, my BIL, and these 3 other guys plus me, are sort of like a clique.
we go out together and stuff.

so the whole gang was in ummu's house for a feast.
and fun we had.

so that is what i did the whole day.
and the phone was ringing incessantly that day, for some odd reason.
and little did i expect it to be him.
i didn't recognise the number.

but i did end up talking to him that night.
and what i heard made my stomach turn.
he is still who is. a little less than a darling.
but i learnt.
there ARE bastards around.

11th december.

i went back driving after a freaking long time.
and the signs were just not right i tell ya.
the moment i stepped out, the heavens gave way. the skies cried.
cried A LOT.

i walked through the shelter, then decided to take a cab to bbdc.
i waited in the shelter, then when i saw a cab, i got down the stairs to flag it down.
but it didnt stop. so me being me, instead of going back into the shelter, i walked the length to the bus stop.

and i didnt feel like i was getting wet in the rain. felt like some evil person was pouring pail after pail of water on my head.

and then, there are those heartless, while in the vehicle, who pointed at me as if i was a specimen.

all wet already, i was so in no mood to go driving.
but so i went, in a cab.
and had the worst experience in a long time.

my driving, no words for it.
close to it would be atrocious.
i half felt bad for my instructor.
but, he is a fucking fucked up asshole.

so much anger.
ya, he really is a bastard.
but then, recently, i met a REAL bastard.

ok never mind, i digress.
i gtg. to see rayn.

sunday.

rayn left home on monday afternoon.
my nights are so boring now.
there is no reason to stay awake.

but i am still seeing him everday so far.
monday night was spent at my sister's house.

sunday was the first day i went out after my fall.
while my second sister(Narj) and my dad went to play badminton at Radin Mas CC, my third sis, (Cutie) and i walked Rayn in his new Quinny pram to the CC. haha. over humps and ridges, sleep he did.

and we woke him up at the CC.
and pushed him around.
oh, his inquisitive eyes.
and then the sleepy yawn that followed. :)

i played badminton, tried to at least. ankle was still hurting a bit, couldnt run.

oh well.

and then. we bought food home.
it was fun, because, i was family, superb as they are.

35 days.

the number of days my sister was here with rayn.
i would tell you that this is the best holiday i have had in a long time.
such love.
the whole family under the same roof, with a lovely new addition.
everyday was a party.
everyday, the four sisters spent good time time together.
rayn was a pampered boy, aunties and grandpa rushing to him at the slightest cry.
loving eyes doting on him every single second.
everything was different in this one month.
no time for anything else.
i was always online, waiting.
waiting for him to cry!

so that i could look into his sweet little eyes and feed him.
then to put him back to sleep and admire his cutteeee round face while he sleeps, like a log, on a good day.

i miss those days.

belated photos, what's new?ha.

being white is not all good. you get ghostly fingers, no?

accidentally artistic

colourful lizard

such are the memories of Tenacious D and Menotti.

back with a bang,

hahaha. so it has been one whole week since i blogged.
i have so much to say. yet i dont know where to start. i will think about it. and be back in a minute. ha ha.

OH, and i finally upgraded to the beta version.
damn, i thought i was adaptable. but i hate changes.

Happy Birthday Khad!

to my darling friend Khadijah!
6 years and still going!
love ya my darling!

happy birthday ben.

here's to growing up, god willing.
:))

sweetness, i say.

thursday.

was supposed to be an exciting day.
it turned out otherwise.

i will tell you the only thing that made up for the rest of the day.
or the only things.

i watched tenacious d with ben.
i mean, despite the fact tt he din get me my grapes.
:P
thanks for the yoghurt drink. hehehe.
it was lame humour, but, it was good lame humour.
something like mine. :P

well anyway, it was photo whoring at gluttons bay and on.
and i hope the only reason we went there was cos it was all halal!
hehe.

and then, oh surprise surprise!
orgasmically delicious. ;)
thanks ben!

i heart you!

and dear anu, meeting you was another highlight too!
thanks thanks thanks darling, but i am in no mood to talk.
love ya!

december.

december it is.
gonna end the somewhat, tumultuous year.

if anyone is even wondering what is wrong with me,
i had a really really bad fall.
left ankle is sprained, and my right knee is very very bruised.
both elbows are bruised too.

sometimes i wonder which leg to put the pressure on. it is a dilemma.
cos my bruise makes it such that i cant stand still or straight up.
and my sprain makes it such that i cant walk too much.
it sucks.

plus, i have a flu attack.
all the sneezing means i gotta keep going to the toilet.
ya, more walking.
i am not uploading the photos cos i am perpetually lethargic, ben.
no hard feelings.

and, well sometimes, you wonder where all those people who are supposed to care for you are.
haiz.

sometimes i miss my mum so.
such is the human tendency.
the need for some love, some care.

broken.

sometimes, you just feel broken.
in more ways than one.
to describe the emotions,
words are none.

sometimes you wish life unravels one layer at a time.
time to adapt, time to recover, time to let go.
but then, it is all hurled at you; no mercy.
that's the best way to learn in life, you know.