an attempt to be "interesting" ha.

http://jeffmilner.com/backmasking.htm


try it. dont be lazy.

survey

if you have a blog, why miss out a chance to win 50 bucks right?

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:D

weekend bliss.

I spent the entire weekend with rayn eshan! cos my sis stayed over!
yipppeeeee!

i don't have a dream

but i do have a friend.
who thinks that lamb comes from goat.

wan yu, i dont wana name you, but you're soo cute.
we can have zoology lessons again okie?

hehehe.

sappy love songs.

i kinda understand where ne-yo was coming from.
when he sang that he's sick of love songs.

baby won't you tell me why,
there is sadness in your eyes.
i don't wana say goodbye...to you.
love is just an illusion.

dear amin

hehe a special post for the one who finds my blog super boring cos there is no juicy info.
:D

i love you tooo!
you are the brother i never had!
and, hehe and you are about the funniest person i knowww. :P

pink eyes.

the day you meet someone with pink eyes, you know you were right that you don't live on earth.
aliens have invaded.
:D

danger zone.

i am starting to skip lectures, and this is scaring me.

today aside. hey i didnt finish my assignment, that is why.

oh well, buck up jal. buck up.

cutie, i know you read this. haha at least now i know.
but hats off to you for managing to go to school, lectures AND doing assignments AND clearing your semester while you were pregnant, and especially now.
cos i can only imagine how tiring that must have been.

does becoming a mother give all these women superhuman qualities?
cos they do become superwomen!
love you sis! :D
but haha, i love your son more . ;)
and just as a testimony to that..

i love you rayn baby!and i love your mother too!!!

booster.

get me some.
i am bloody 19. and look at how tired i get man.

well well, for the update.
saturday, i went for a nus dance competition.
the competition itself was below my expectations, but it was a good time to catch up.

plus i felt good. :)

sunday was a good family day!
been some time since we had one of those.
we went to vansh.
to celebrate rayn's coming of age(3 months hehe.) and my dad's wedding anniversary.
in spirit she lives.

monday, tuesday and today have passed unbelievably fast.
and yet they are slow.
the paradox we live in.

and some people inevitably make your day.

if you think you are one of those who made my day, then you probably are. :)

well well.
school work is catching up.

here we go again.

flashes.

i have been flashes, and they are scaring me.
flashes.
of me being hit by a car.

in that moment before you crash, your life comes to a halt.

it seems real to me.

birthday list.

1) baret
2)DKNY Red/Green apple
3)ear phones
4)cupcakes


hehe a little early, no?
nah, it is never too early.
keke.

and i really do wana start reading the papers!

end of the rainbow.

his smile is all i need to go on.
strength, he gives.
my darling.
the innocence.
the purity.
the love.

emptiness.

i feel it filling up the vast place they call heart.
memories flash, ever so threateningly.
they tug at my sleeves to forgive, to forget.

it was a happy day for me, carefree and light.
but now i feel hollowed out.

who is going to call me an angel?
enough to make me feel like i really have a halo.

craving.
it is killing me.
i want time to zoom past.
like now.

i thank god.

for i have all 5 fingers on both hands.
i was in the train in the morning. and in walked a lady.
she looked young, about 20.
all was normal, except for her hand.
her left hand, there were only 3 fingers.
her index finger and engagement finger were missing.
they looked cut.

i thank god, for despite my flaws and shortcomings, i am blessed.

selfish is the heart.

there are so many kinds of love, and yet the prevalent one seems to be the selfish kind.
how selfish.
how very selfish.

the lengths to which to people go to feel loved.
you'd start to think they valued it as much as their materials.

broken rules.

yes i broke my own rules.
but i m glad, for i am clear.

10 reasons.

10 reasons i should hate him.
-he drinks.
-he has issues with himself.
-he may not convert.
-my sisters dislike him.
-my family matters to me more than him.
-he smokes.
-he is not THE one for me.
-i deserve someone better.
-he won't be here for me forever.
-i want to hate him.

this is has been going on forever.
so much confusion, so many dilemmas.
i am putting a stop to it.
i want a normal/carefree life, where i dont have to feel like i have to weigh the importance of everything.
i should listen to my sisters.
there is nothing that irresistable about him.
i will wait.
i am not gonna talk to him.
i have a good mind to change my number.

if i stray from this, please remind me.
anyone.
and if you dont know who or what i am talking about, chances are that you dont need to know.

not a halt, after all.

i thought you had a good mind to stop blogging, jal?
haha.

well i guess i do like being read.
and after all, where else would an internet savvy communications undergrad be improving her writing skills?
ha ha.

well well, i have increasingly been drawn to the idea of going into EBM(elec and broadcast media)
some might find this a joke, in view of my media diet.
but, i dont know if it is a shallow view, i just like the way it holds so much power.
the hold you have on all those minds.
the addiction you can create, the addiction you can perpetuate.

i had my first 104 tutorial today.
it is a matter of attitude, i say.
it doesn't have to be boring if you dont want it to be.
i think i just have pretty much a boring tut group.
sorry guys, yall looked half dead.
how sad.

and i had my first drama tut too.
it went well!
it was fun.

plus i felt good today!
:D
but, i didnt see my darling.
if things turn out the way i want them too, i will have something really exciting to blog about tomorrow.

and dear jun, please recover fast and go for film history.
congrats zeinab.
sleep well val.

those who are not mentioned, you know i love yall too. :)

booboochuchu

please forgive me for the neglect.
i am feeling super super guilty.
i hope yall know that my love for yall goes beyond the hay and the pellets and the showing off.

you guys filled up my life in a way no other person can do.
you guys give unconditional love.
it is hard to find
so simple, yet so pure.

it is so moving, to go in and still feel the same love you guys have shown from the start.
i wish i could make yall immortal!

and guys, this is really not meant to be a funny post.
you'd be amazed how much those beautiful creatures(my dwarf rabbits) helped us get through my mum's death.

they did it better than ANY human could.
for my mum loved them as she loved us.

innocence.

innocence is such a powerful tool.
it draws people.

it is attractive.
for it is a rarity.
hard to see, but you know it when you feel it.

many of us lose it early in our lives.

every new fact we learn about life makes us lose that inch of innocence.

when we stole the first lollipop, when we complained to the teacher about the guy who stole the pencil, when we explored our sexuality, when we explored homosexuality.

i havent done all of those, but there are those who have.
and there- just innocence losing its tangent, losing its only point of contact.

should i stop?

i have a good mind to stop blogging.

haappy birthday val!

jan 13th was val's birthday!
love ya darling!

oooh and i am back in the blogging world!
comp's back in working condition after some labourious reformatting, but of course, it was worth it.
i attended ms (or mrs) jaclyn ang's wedding today.

my first time in a church actually.
it was such a sweet affair.
it was then on to holland v swensens, TCC and great world city for Pan's Labyrinth.
quite an enjoyable day.
movie was OKAY.
nothing unmissable.
i am broke.
i failed my first driving test.
my retest is on the 13th of feb.

i am so gonna pick my date up on V Day.
which means i am gonna(hoping to at least) to pass.
and my date.
Rayn Eshan.
what were you thinking?
;)

reminders.

24th: worked at starbucks
25th: spent the day with family.
26th:familyyy.
27th: have no idea, sisters?
28th:depression, results.
29th: =D
30th:memory fails me.
31st: starbucks, hari raya haji. good food.
1st: happy new year!hema,kalai,meh
2nd: hema, kalai, meh
3rd: family!
4th: family!
5th is also gonna be a family day.

driving test in 6 days.
he is back.