dream job, i say.

i woke up feeling tired.
listen why.

in my dream, i was in a lab; complete with the white lab coat.
with my team.
manipulating variables.
but internal validity was just lacking.
i think i hear my calling.
do you?

all that ever matters.

the ties that bind us.

my green water bottle.
and our incidentally identically keychains.
love you junaini. :)

as promised, jared.

shit la, look so tired at the end of the day. the effects of not wearing eyeliner, maybe. HA HA.
and jared, you brighten my day. :D
as always.

the stress is building up.

like a layer of bricks.
piled higher and higher.
the stress is building up.
like a wall.

the overeating has already started.
haha.
i had 6 pieces of bread.
1 with nutella.
2 with nutella and banana.
1 with nutella and peanut butter.
the common factor is...?

haha!

chocolate! :P

so much to study. kinda freaked out.
feel like i need to get my act together. damn man, so difficult.
exams are just tortuous.
cant they already see how smart i am. HA. HA.
:P

titoudao.

the play that we went to watch. for our drama and performance review.
1000 words.
OH MAN.

with a great group of people.
the play was pretty good. and my first taste of pseudo wayang.
pseudo because it happened enclosed and under aircon.
amazing costumes and great acting.
and we went to menotti for dessert after that.
and i will let the pictures do the talking.

artistic manipulation of the fingers

i love you baby feebee. shit they rhyme.(despite the neopets)

the one missing in the jigsaw puzzle of my 104 group. love love. :)

when the group came together. kester needs to learn, dont mind him. ha.

erwin and wei shan looking like siamese twins

and shannon watching them, bored.

the epitome of antisocial behaviour. scary one at that. haha.

curly hair that never changes

of dimples and happiness.

and then the weekend came along.

saturday.
finally home, with nothing to do.
after a long time.

a need to club.
and so i suggested to my sister.
"why dont we go to gotham tonight?"
and she said " i am alr going to st james tonight"
"WHAT! i wana go too!"

haha. it was her company function and admission was gonna be free.
and after much contemplation, she decided to bring her sis along. a sis a decade younger.

and so we went.
and for 2 whole hours...
we walked.
from room to room.
looking for good music that will make us stay.
and eventually left without finding it.

there was house, trance, salsa music, canto pop, and rnb.
in various rooms like the powerhouse, the boiler room, movida, and drangonfly.
and then the brief meeting with clarence. :)

dont mistake me, it is a good place. to chill out.
maybe it was our bad luck.
cos i heard that they do play good hip hop on other days.
oh well, it was just not meant to be.

haha. but it was a good experience, esp cos it came free. :D
plus, the number of cute guys did make up for it.
ha ha.

simpang bedok,the beach, and love.

we finally made the trip.
to simpang bedok.
on a cold and wintery..OOPS. just cold. a cold night.
perfect to spend the night with people who make you happy! and not to mention laugh!

shannon picked us up from tanah merah mrt stn.
and oh.my.god.
it is as if the kids in the back had never been in a car before. (ie feebs, jun, kester)

we sat, in laughter, and choruses of "are we there yet!?" from feebee.

and then came the food.
of kebabs and roti johns.
good food, better conversation.

on crispy fries, soggy fries.
peanut butter with cheese, and kaya with cheese.
buffets and stuffing.

and yes, we did talk about food.
haha.
and shielded feebs from the terrifying wild cats (HA. HA.)

and so jun suggested we go for a ride. and i suggested the beach.
and that is where we landed.
carpark E2, which held memories from the carwash.

the trip to the beach was amazing and breathtaking.
literally breathtaking.
cos i laughed, to the point that i couldnt breathe. and ended up crying.

we sat on the breakwater. and talked.
in the quiet of the night.

it was an amazing outing.
and i feel the love.
thanks guys.
and yes, i am thanking Lee Chun Wah too, for bringing us together AND releasing the exam questions. HAHA.

and, happy bonsai. ;)

back to blogging.

haha. i have just been completely lazy to blog.
plus had no time.
now with my 103 presentation and 106 presentation over, i can breathe a little easier.
and isnt this the best time?
103 lect.
ha ha.
feels like lots has happened in 5 days.
since andrew duffy offered MnMs to me, to celebrate the end of the week. HAHA.
and so i will begin my rambling.

MnMs.

andrew duffy should be teaching us this sem.
and i will be smiling everyday.
he is so nice!

energy.less?

is there something sapping my energy, i wonder?
i don't feel like i am even doing anything in school.
and yet, there is evidence that i have been doing things.
and they are even turning out better than mediocre.
do i really have many people within me, as a wise psychologist puts it.

what is happening?
i am losing the drive.
to be what i can be.
and yet i don't know.

what is in my way?

blasphemy

almost.
when you see a child in a mum's arms.
the safest place to be, maybe.
but holding a cigarette pack.

of nostalgia.

what do you do when you find out that your first crush is engaged?
the love letter that said the sun wont shine without me. should i forget?
time flies, really.
the world is spinning out of control.
but i like it. ;)

itsybitsyspider.

do i even have to say a thing?

lovelove104group.

the girl whose smile brightens my day.

my fellow corn pau enthusiast. who claims he doesnt laugh a lot,and doesnt believe in what he says.

the effects of being loved too much. but there aint ever enough loving yeah babay. :)

kinda proves my " i like dark guys cos the whole world lights up when they smile" theory.
yes kester, you fit in just perfectly. no worries. ;) and the kiss from jun was meant for me.

imagine this. 5 loony people. a ridiculous module. and two horrendous projects.
and the end product?
FUN.
haha.haha.haha.
i remember the laughter more than anything.
the BK meetings.
the corn pau discussions.
the same downtime periods.
jun.jal.kester.feebs.shannon(love you tooo!)
this is a dedication, i say.

the reason i go to school.

this was taken about 2 weeks ago. so many things i want to blog about.
the very people who make me wana go to school.
the variety of colours.
the variety of characters.
a wholesome coming together.
and a wholesome experience.
thank you guys.
i didn't think uni life was gonna be this fun. :)

lag.

there are so many things i want to say, and so many pics i want to post.
but time. is. a. limitation.

the past week has been full of ups and downs.
and it is amazing, that the very people who bring you up, bring you down as well.

why are humans so selfish?
why do people treat others like trash?
what happened to " do unto others what you want others to do unto you"?
oh well.

this post doesnt reflect my mood actually.
i am pretty happy, for i witnessed a sight to behold before i left home.
a smile.
to melt the heart.

because my mind thinks.

that it has done what it can.
it will retire.
in order to face the demands of later.

i am gonna be donating blood at the SAC. anyone wana save a life? :)

my dad said he heard they sell the blood to other countries.
you can take it 2 ways:

what is the point of doubting everything in life?
even if it is gonna be used in another country, it is gonna save a life.
:)

toodles.

of words and honour.

and how they are never kept.

GM food.

you know, i never thought thailand was too advanced, especially in the area of GM(genetically modified) food. but 2 of my friends tried and almost succeeded in changing my impression.

on a rather unsophisticated plastic bottle of dried figs was a label.
and it said NET 14 GM Made in Thailand (or sth like that)
now, MOST people would take GM to mean Grams.
but two, and i repeat, two of my friends. NO.
having learnt the wonders of GM food in GP and whatever other subject , they decide to go that way in interpreting the harmless label.

HAHAHAHHAA.
and they cracked me up i tell you.
i am glad i enlightened yall, JUN and ZEINAB. =D

human traffic jam.

i've heard about it, but today was the FIRST bloody time i was STUCK in one.

it rained like crazy today.
you've got to know.
and this is what happened.
there was a freaking human jam between JP and Boon Lay MRT stn.
no signaling, no lane change, no honking!

ha. it was horrible. 10 min.
just cos singaporeans dont know when to give way.
such barbaric behaviour in a so-called civilised country.

MAY 13th

just so that val and yaya KNOW.
HAHA.

international women's day.

was yesterday.
and today, SCWO( singapore council of women organisation) had an event.

i went to volunteer.
got to see the first lady, and shake hands with some minister of state.
all these women of power.

and yet.
the things they say.

status, power and position.
and the individuals inside, insecure.

and so they advocate.
but why steer them away from what they are capable of.
why make a big deal.
if women are better in the kitchen, they are better in the kitchen.
why see it as inferior?
there can be power and status and position in the littlest thing.
if you know how to use it.

located.

missing person and book located.

person spared, cos she is a cute, friendly, blur, and absolutely lovable good friend of mine.

ha. suddenly, the world seems brighter.

=D

LOVE.

like i have never known before.

on a happier note.

love you khad!

this is overdue, really. went out with khad a week ago!to vivocity. it is always special. =D we go a long way back, and have probably shared some very unique experiences. For someone i have grown up with, love you Khad. =D

just wrong.

Dear MISS. JALELAH BINTE MEERAH SAHIB ABU BAKER:
"THIRD OVERDUE NOTICE"

WE ARE CONCERNED about the following overdue materials. We have
sent you two reminders, but no reply from you has been received.
Unless you return these items within the next week, we will be
sending you a bill for the replacement costs of these materials.

Thank you.

1 call number:P94.D274 ID:0009950060674
Ethics in media communications : cases and controversies / Louis A. Day.
Day, Louis A.
due:23/2/2007,23:59

NOW, WHO THE FUCK DID I LEND MY MATRIC CARD TO?
learn, jal, learn.
it is not always good to be helpful.
if i do find you dear borrower, you are gonna be majorly fucked up by me.

shoot me.

haha someone shoot me.
i just started studying for 103.
cecilia wont go back on her word right?
the better one will be taken right?
cos i know nuts about the last few lectures.
and i havent done the reading,
or finished proper my 105 survey critique.

anu, i feel you when you say complacent.

and, today i just wana say something.
just for today.
i dont like being big.
dont get me wrong, i love myself.
but sometimes, i wonder how different the world is going to be, when i am at the other spectrum of the weight line.
:)

boredom creates.

30 Things You Might Not Know!! by ktwalter73
What are you listening to right now?:	a stupid video
What was the last thing you ate?:	peanut butter bread
If you were a crayon what color would you be?:	orange
How is the weather right now?:	god knows.
What color is your underwear right now?:	ha. damn. what the hell. purple.
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?:	kuna
The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?:	eyes
Favorite type of food?:	western
Do you drink?:	plain water, yes.
Ever got so drunk you dont remember?:	on water?no.
What color are your eyes?:	dark brown.
Single?:	and available. ha.
Favorite month?:	may. i wonder why?
Last movie you watched?:	ah. Norbit(yikes)
Favorite day of the week?:	thursday
Are you too shy to ask someone out?:	no.
Hugs or Kissess?:	hugs
Chocolate or Vanilla?:	chocolate
What books are you reading?:	please ask me to read
Piercings?:	yes.
Favorite movie?:	not one. too many.
Any pets?:	yes. BOO BOO CHUCHU
Aim?:	to get out of SCI alive
Dogs or Cats?:	dogs
Favorite flower?:	blue roses
Have you ever fired a gun?:	HAHA. does lasermania count?
Do you like to travel by plane as opposed to car?:	no. carrrr.
Right handed or left handed?:	right.
How many pillows do you sleep with?:	2
Are you missing someone?:	yes.very much.
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WAKEY WAKEY.

it is back to school, and we are unfortunately being shown this semi-interesting video about a trial.
jumia something.
this african american political activist who has been charged with murdering a white police officer.
10 minutes is ok.
but you are pushing it beyond it.

ok, shi xiong says hi. thanks for bringing kaypoh to a whole new level. :)

well, it is a lazy monday morning, and i had to force my conscience to overpower my mind.
good job, jal. ha.

it is BACK TO SCHOOL!

i can honestly say i had a good break, cos i did NOTHING at all. hahahhahaaha.

amin bought me a new bag! very funky, hehehhe just like me.
=D

amin, you said i will be happy with anything on my birthday right? hahah, i should update my birthday wishlist. keke.
2 more months. to save. :P
what is your marginal propensity to save(mps) right now? damn i miss econs.

narcissist.

and i'll be gone.
before you know.

Raincheck 101.

i will have to ace this.
and i will.
things will change.

l'explication.

je ne peux pas souvenir comment parler francais. tres triste.
je dois reviser la lang parce que je veux communiquer a francais!
ha.

the little i remember.
it is amazing what a little explanation can do.
it can put a smile on someone's face.
don't hold them back.

gotham penthouse.

oh my god. where do i start. it was a bloody SHIOK. thanks girls, for the freaking good time! you girls make amazing club partners, and the chemisty was wonderful. made me realise attention doesnt matter when youre having a ball of a time! whoever you were mr DJ, you were cute and you played bloody good songs. *muacks*

but the damn Exotica guys spoilt it. really. hot my ass la. i think i am hotter. i could have done exactly the same moves(save for the ballet ones) such a turn off. they literally made me puke. sutha anu and i had to move to near the locker to be away from their disgusting pelvic thrusts, and less-than-perfect dance moves and poor coordination. oh well.

but other than that, damn, i think we rocked the dance floor hehe.
and it didnt matter at all that i had to be home by 130. cos man, i sure made good use of the time.
cant wait for the next round!!!

dhool 2007

my first collage

it was fun. the dancing, the atmosphere.
BUT. vidiyal should not have won. more movement than dancing. acid houz got my vote. :)