waiting for the performance

haha. well, the interns have been arrowed to put up a little performance during an occasion named chardonnay, which different desks host at different times.
it is meant to be fun time, and boy have we made up an entertaining performance.
i am actually kinda excited.
but for god's sake, it has been a long time since i had to do anything in front of a large crowd.

hehe it involves song and dance, and therefore pretty much lots of opportunity for embarrassment.
you know free style dancing sits well with me, but i really hate to remember and practise choreographed steps. hahaha.
gosh, the times which i forgot the steps.. like during the ACS(I) competition- i am sure my sis remembers since she is the one who actually choreographed it, and did an AMAZING job at that!

yeah. got a few more things to do. feeling a little saddled.
but anyway, last night we stayed till quite late practising it.
and then we went for dinner with ben, cheekin and kim! :)

almost all the interns.
was real good fun.

anyway, you know, if this was my personal diary, you would be reading lots and lots and lots more things at this point of my life.
erm, sisters, if yall are interested..haha. dont ask me. :p

love love, jal

working away from office

has been a refreshing change.
although i was stuck in a hospital instead.
i think practically everyone could recognise me when i went back yesterday.
i was there from 0945 to 1930 on Monday!

nothing exciting in my life now currently, except i got to know someone new, and have been talking to this person a lot more than i have been talking to anyone new.. for the past three months?

well, the thing about writing such things in a blog is that sometimes its sad, when i look back on my archives.

cos more often than not, the person and i would have lost touch already.
i question the time and energy spent on these people sometimes.
but well, it usually becomes a happy habit.
and once in a while, these people stay as my good friends.

it's great to have friends from a wide array of backgrounds.
you really hear different sorta life stories.. very different from my own.

think that many of those who go through the jc-uni route are sheltered.
they don't know what others going through, and sadly, their lives revolve around a very narrow reality.

while i am sheltered enough, i think i have lived vicariously through these different characters i have met from the shady virtual world.
some people have really taught me some useful lessons. :)

anyway, i haven't uploaded photos from my birthday cos i wana do it one-shot.
i need to take a photo of the very very touching beautiful card that rayn made for me with the help of his mummy.

haha, coming up coming up.

all in all, i have had a pretty satisfying birthday.
haha, narcissistic me, talking about it one week on!
haha.

anyway, the gift count sure drops as you grow older.
;)

till again!

i might have a crush

on pitbull.
how come i never knew he's white.
he doesnt sound it.
like JT.
i like him! :D

10 more min

i figure i wanna blog before i leave office.
i will update with pics from my bday soon. including one of the card that my darling rayn made for me.
but i am still leaving cutie to explain her mistake, ummu!
haha. :)

all in all, i had a great birthday!

i like celebrating growing older.
but maybe only for like 2 more years?
hahahha.
plans for the weekend..
playing badminton with anu in the morning tmr.
i am probably going for a picnic at botanic gardens with the ST people after that.
and sunday, badminton as usual with my dad!

well, that's the lowdown.
off i go!
see you soon.

sam the man

and then i came to office and saw this. haha. so sweet of sam!
but the back cannot be revealed.
naughty boy you sam!
thanks for the effort! really made my day! :))




and thats him! :)

11 hours

into my special day and i am already overwhelmed.
some reasons i can't say. ;)

oh.my.god.
my sis just called me from my house!
and rayn insisted that i was home.
oh oh, i hope he is not angry with me.
he called me and asked: "Where are you?"
She said he is in a very good mood.
i want to seeeee himmmmm!!!

sometimes it is so hard to leave him and go and see my friends.
although i know i need to keep in touch with my friends as well.
he is sooo irresistable.
and when i am with him, i really have twice the fun- the kinda fun.. well, adults cant match up to it, thats why. :p

anyway, i have gotten quite a few smses already!
and anu was sooooo sweet.
she woke up extra early and came to my house in the morning!
i told her i need to get up at 8.
but of course i wasnt awake, and i heard someone knocking the room door.
but i didnt actually guess it was her!
hahahha but when i woke up i actually said "i knew it!"
although i didnt hahahahah.

anyway, she made me breakfast! :D

sweetnesssss.

=D

birthday eve

there are so many things i want this year!
hahahhahaa.
i dont know who's gonna read it, or this is too full of myself, but i am gonna write out a wishlist, so here goes.

in no particular order

1) earphones that wont fall out of my ears when i go running
2) new swimming costume (so i dont look like i am from the 90s)
3) SHOES SHOES SHOES- slippers, heels, mary janes, pumps, anything really.
3) jeans- i dont have blue or black ones.- hahahaha not anymore! i got them in the evening. on impulse. but you can reimburse me. :p
4) watch- preferably a coolio adidas one
5) earrings- gold ones, among anything- cos everytime i dress up, i realise i dont have gold ones. i need studs as well, for once in a while. hehehe.
6) chunky bangles
7) i want a new camera! haha.

okay that's about it. i am gonna give myself a hair makeover as well. :)

yay. it's birthday time.

okay anyway, my sis says this skin doesn't suit me.
she says i should have something metallic.
and cool.
finally hear it from the horse's mouth. that i am cool.
hahahahhahaha.

no la, i am hot. right?

:p

i like my new skin!

but can someone tell me how to include my archives?
i tried to copy and paste from my previous template but it didnt work.
jared??
:)

start of a new week.
got to work earlier than my frequent 10am.
haha. damn.

sadness, i brought my memory card to upload photos, but not a memory card reader.

my sis is not well. and neither is my nephew now. they are having some viral thing.
get well soon my dearies!
i think that it's really easy to fall sick in singapore.
cos it is so densely populated.

in the mrt, if one person sneezes or coughs, the bacteria will be hanging in the air for at least 2 min before the train door opens again.
and the weather..gosh.
we totally get roasted in the sun.
then when we enter a shopping centre- its like BAM, cool air.
step out again, and WHAM, it's hot air.

easy to fall sick.

everyone, take care okay!
have sufficient rest and take lots of vitamin C. :)

I MISS RAYN SO MUCH cos i spent almost the whole day yesterday with him, from the time he got up at 9am.
he was in an excellent mood, though devilish at times.
was on a mission to not sleep.
and he succeeded.
adorable thing he!

i carried him when he was sleeping aft a long time. hahhaa.
a lot heavier than the last time. which is a good thing. :)

i worry about when he grows up and is too embarrassed to be close to mimmi joe.
:s although i will be a youngish and hip aunty(compared to his other aunties)
hahaha

anyway, bday wish list coming up! :D

sleep late so tomorrow won't come

haha. that's how i used to feel whenever i was gonna collect major results- my o level and a level results to be specific.

that's not how i feel right now.
but it's scary how SO many ppl sleep late.
to put it against how important sleep is SUPPOSED to be! gosh.

happy mothers' day to any mother who might be reading my blog, and all your mothers as well.

please do appreciate the fact that your mothers are there.
unless they have given you reason to hate them- this sad case might be rare, but sometimes, just sometimes, it is justified.

the weekend that just past seemed to stretch.
maybe cos it started on friday night.
it was kim's birthday!
and we celebrated it at butter factory.
it was the most fun for the firs two hours, when we were in the hiphop section.
it is scary how ppl ENJOY house or trance or techno or whatever the other genre was.
i cant get my mind around it.
anyway i decided to stick around cos i didnt wana be a wet blanket.
but gosh some of my colleagues are CRAZY.

i realised at that point that i will never be CRAZY while clubbing, cos only alcohol can give that effect.
and you know what? i am glad about it.
it can get pretty unclassy when people let go of themselves totally.
a club is not a good place to do it, at least according to me.

haha i admit that is judgemental though. :)

saturday was good because i met my two absolutely LOVELY best friends.
i say the same thing every time i meet them, and this time was no different.
i love them. like from the bottom of my heart.
i have accepted them, and i believe they have accepted me.

sigh, being with them is so.. free.

the understanding is priceless. :)

i have photos! yay!!!
haha. will upload them tmr when i get to work. i do wana have an assignment, but like no drive leh?
maybe cos it is my bday week haha.
oh, talking about that, i am gonna blog a list soon!
though i doubt i will get what i want. hehehe.

alright, sis is waiting for her laptop.
till next time then! :)

pompous singaporeans

many a time, when i ask people for their names, they refuse.
okay, i understand that some people are SHY.
but most people think that everyone who is gonna be reading that article is going to recognise them.
gosh, for god's sake, worse come to worst, they are going to message or call and say "hey! i saw your name in the paper!"
like okay.. so what?
unless it is for something bad or embarrassing- that i understand.

but even for the slightest thing, they are like NO.
so irritating.

okay that aside, i have been having huge inertia coming to work for the past 2 days, dont know why.
but i guess now everything is okay once i have come.
:)
maybe it is just the fear of getting my stories canned- cos the feeling sucks.
but it is part and parcel of it i guess. :)

i shall be meeting my two best friends this saturday- actually three, cos i will be meeting jun as well. and then playing badminton with my dad on sunday!
:)
sounds good to me. of course, i will be seeing my nephew as well.

alright, waiting for my story to be edited now.
till again (soon it seems)
jal

snap to the past

i was reading through some of my older posts.
gosh, i don't know whether my writing reflects it, but i think i have changed.
and personally, for the better.
saw some photos of rayn from his baby days too. time flies is a cliche, but one that is hard to replace when you really think about it.

so many times, i have trouble recalling what i did the previous week, because it ended before i could even absorb fully what happened.
quite scary.
soon enough i will be hitting 60, shriveled up, still single and wondering what the hell i have done with my life.

i think about death very often. what if i die? what if the people who matter to me die? And i am talking anyone who matters, even just acquaintances who cheer me up. I think about individuals, and being at their funeral. I think it is some sort of a preparation process. Because it will happen one day, if i myself am alive to witness it.

So O’ brothers! Remember death as often as you can in the 24 hours of your daily life and make this your habit. It could be your turn next then your friends, family and neighbours will place you under the ground.
Start now before if it is too late!

I got this from a Muslim website. We are encouraged to think about death- it is an unescapable reality.

I wonder how I will die, like really.
i can't rem what the facebook quiz said, but it was pure trash. hehe.

anyway, i was happy that i ate less than necessary today.
till i went over to my sister's house.
amin bought a cheeseburger for both of us. it was nothing short of sumptuous!

every night, i go to bed thinking that i wana wake up earlier and exercise.
but NO, it has not happened even once in the past 4 months.
except for that one saturday where ben, kim, carol, her bf, and i were supposed to go running.
i got up at 7. and then i couldnt go back to sleep although the rest were not gonna run.
so i went running alone.
was such a shiok feeling
the day was excellent.
i went home and had a shower just in time to join my sister, amin, rayn and zai for breakfast and swensens-their breakfasts are suited for kings, by the way.

and then spent the rest of the day at the expo, where cutie(my 3rd sis) very sweetly bought a few things for me. :))

i still remember! gosh, it was more than a month ago.

photos of i dont know what.. something anything coming up.
cos if not this will be become an essay-ish blog.

haha. :))

alright, till again!

say my say my name

haha i am in a real random mood,
and be warned that my post has nothing to do with the title of my post.
haha, they always change my suggested headlines, so i figure they are never good enough anyway ke ke ke.

look at me, blogging instead of writing out my monthly PI logbook entry.
haha, at least this month i have written down things that i have learnt!
but really, the learning curve is pretty damn steep.
and i am glad.

i think swine flu news is getting old.
and no matter what you change the name to (Influenza A (H1N1)), people are just gonna call it swine flu.
anyway, well, i am glad that the govt is taking such precautions, but i dont think these precautions need to be covered so extensively.

but either way, i do hope it does not hit our shores.

i know that during the sars time, everything was just a blur cos we were 16 and nothing seemed to matter.
i actually went for a party when school was shut.
the awareness and the panic levels were low, at least in people my age.
actually even now, i think people dont really know the facts or care much, but they are just taking the lead from media coverage and deeming it as a BIG deal/

anyway on a lighter note, my long weekend was well-spent.
went over to kavitha's and we did some good catching up! abandoning the movies we were supposed to watch. :)
and then on saturday, went for a wedding and then to a club with my sisters.
been soo long since i danced to tamil songs.
was real fun!

my sisters are my best clubbing partners, cos pardon me, it just helps that they don't need to get high to have fun!
no offence at all intended at anyone else.

i only had 6 hours of sleep, and then played badminton with the SIM peeps for 2 hours, went home, rested for like an hour, and then went back to play badminton with my dad for an hour.

then got home, took a shower and headed down to have durians! shiok. (:
and then, when i was half asleep, they decided to go to mustafa!
gosh.
i really had to force myself not to sleep standing, or walking.

i am holding off any illness, alth the sneezes are coming.
hard not to when people in the office are sniffing.

well, here's to zai's berocca, hot water and sleep!

ps: anu, get well soon!!! :)