nocturnal

this is not healthy jal. haha. like i dun noe.

no point la. i like sleeping late. hm, it makes me feel peaceful. the night is serene. really. the quiet has almost medicinal quality. hm. night is a good time to reflect. unfortunately, when i reflect when i am PMSing, the reflection is cast on an ugly mirror. that ONLY shows bad things. flaws. imperfections. well, thank god. i am not PMSing now.

well. well. hm. i am sleepy, really. feel my eyes closing. actually, i wanted to say. i am so irritated with myself. u noe, after talking to him yesterday, i almost feel addicted, i am fine not toking to him for a long time, but once i tok to him, itz like i wana tok to him every damn day. damm.

and that, trust me, is not a good thing. it is not good to be dependent on anyone other than ur family. really. i mean yes i trust my close frens. but no offence, i think that at the end of the day, ur family is gonna dig ur ass out of the shit.

hm. today was funny. every single person i met said i look like i have lost weight. hm. well, i defininitely dun feel it. one day of fasting CANNOT make a difference. i really do hope i lose though. but the thing aboutlosing weight while fasting is that. HARI RAYA. and bam!it all comes back. haha. itz like a "eat like u have never eaten before" kinda day u noe. somehow, everyones culinary skills just shine on that day. hehe.

hm. i noe it is kinda boring without fotos. but i will get round that soon. haha. then therez no stopping my fans from creating a fan club. and in case thatz what u are thinking, i am NOT deluded in any way, at any time of the day. :P

haha. i ramble a lot. thatz why i hate typin. but i should type, since zeinab claims my typing is slower than hers (which it is not, i reiterate) i must prove to her that it is not. haha. well. well.
i shall go off soon. and i am actually webcamming with someone. but we are both doing our own stuff. he is cute, but unfortunately, i can hardly see anything. itz really dark. i can only see the tissue he is using, dammit!

haha.
well, lemme end of with a "poem" that i wrote in the spur of the moment quite a long time ago. itz something like a goodnite message..

as today fades away,
it gives rise to yet another beautiful day.
afresh we shall start,
allowing the bad of yester days to part.
renewing our energies,
and regaining our inner peace,
we look ahead.
for, the wonders of the day to come have been left unsaid.

:)