depressed.

depressed i am.
not very. but it is nagging at the back of my head.
5/1o for the quiz.
12/20 for my news article.
well. there are reasons to explain.
i simply did not study hard enough when i should have.
and. as for the article, think i havent been able to write newspaper articles since i was 14.
from the hindenburg article that mr deepak gave us.
damm.

well.

i feel awful, but i dun noe how to get out from it.
i almost feel like i am caught online.

unable to get out of my virtual world.

i do want to pay more attention at lectures.
i want to sleep earlier.
there are so many things i wana do that i noe will make me feel better at the end of the day.
but i choose.

i choose to remain this way. to sow. and to reap the detriments.
lack of sleep making me more sickly.
lack of sleep making me think unclearly.
making me frustrated.

my online world wasting my time. eroding my priorities.
diminishing my morals.
confusing my security.

and yet i need to go online. to gain access to people i would otherwise not bother contacting.

what do i do?

i need a direction.
i need to studdy.
it is a need.

i need a timetable.
exams will come. soon. nov 16.

less than a month left.
gonna get my ass off and study.
and i hope i study my notes and my books.
because at mac. at that time. there is no telling whether i might end up with him.