good morning

it is early in the morning, and i am going back to sleep soon.
thanks anu, for messgaing me!it really makes a difference to me that u are always there for me!
i wasnt in the mood to talk yesterday though, and neither am i today.
i dont noe why.
sleep has made me feel better. but the feeling lingers. a lot of disappointment. and the need to move on.

i cannot believe my feelings collapsed so fast from last thursday. this really feels like the end. but i gotta stand strong. it is not the first time this is happening. too many chances. i am way too patient. was it patience or habit or security. i dont noe. i think it was the security that made me want to hang on to you forever.

but if this is how it feels when u are not around, the security when u ARE around is not worth it. this is killing me badly.

u r a selfish bastard. u really are.

i shouldnt look for it, it will find me.

thank you jun, last night for the conversation. it helped. it gave me direction.

and thanks for a night well spent(ooh scandalous) and a movie well-watched!

at least now we are now on a consensus that leonardo di caprio is hot!haha.

well. sleep is calling me. ciao


~~~You see me laughing. If only you could see my heart.~~~