good start, jal

my mummy baby. haha. i used to squeeze her!

not bad!i have been continuously writing for more than a day!better than i expected. hehe.

well..i should be doing my project stuff now. but i have been sneezing non stop. and since i can't drink or eat, the only form of medicine i can think of is sleep. but if i sleep, i cant do my project stuff. argh. blame econs for opportunity cost. dam, i miss econs so much!! to think that i hated in the beginning of JI. hehe. shows that hatred is not permanent. kekekeke.

well well, this morning(or was it afternoon?haha) i really din feel like getting up. i was depressed. really. it's that feeling where i know my mum should be with me. and she isnt here. every single holiday, she was there. but now i have passed june 2005 and december 2005 without her. i am glad i worked during my 10 month break. staying at home during holidays without mum is tortuous. really. cos there are so many memories within these four walls. although she was only with us for 2 yrs plus in this house. i do have memories with her. man, i remember how happy i would be when i thought she wouldnt be at home but her slippers are outside. and how happy i would be to here her signature dragging of her slippers outside my home when she is coming back from marketing(probably buying some kinda snacks for her pampered children) i miss her soooo much. quite obviously, it cannot be expressed in words. msged my sis in the morning and told her. and she said she feels it too. especially in the fasting month. now we have no one to whip up all those fantastic meals. and unfortunately, no one to carry on her culinary legacy :(

while everyone is gonna be awaiting the feast every evening, i will be cracking my head on where to eat! and, i do have a maid yes. but breaking fast with her cooking does not appeal to me. not even a bit. i dun want her to lay out the food for me. wherez mummy?!



well. well. mummy is in heaven!enjoying all the chocolates and ice cream that she couldnt have on earth cos of her diabetes. my cute mum! argh. okies, stop now jal.

i think i will go back to sleep, cos i really dun feel very cognitively alert.

but i am not een sleepy. man. haha. well well. see ya later!