do i accept?

should i accept ur lame excuses?
should i put up with u?
with the hurt. with the love. with the constant disappearance.
with the unsatisfying explanations.

should i move on? CAN i move on?
i dont noe.
cos unknowingly, i called u everyday. a habit.
bad habits die so so hard.

don't i deserve better?

but i halt. cos. i am afraid.

afraid i wont get the same kind of love u give me again.
afraid no one will be able to appreciate me the same way u do.
no one will make me feel like the best person in the world.


but should that be enough to keep me here?
is it really worth it?
i am so confused.
u told me i might move on in a month.
a part of me wishes i would.
i dont want to be here when u come back.
i want u to feel the pain i feel now.

the pain of knowing u dun want to be here.
because of the circumstances that hold u down.
u claim.

should i accept? CAN i accept?

i dont know.

i know i shouldnt call him.
how?