i feel friendless

oh so lonely.
and it is so getting to me.
what is the point of having so many friends, i wonder..
when at a time i need comfort, need someone to confide in, there doesnt seem to be anyone around.

miss you so much anu!

well, i guess there are people i could confide in, but theres always that distinct feeling that i am disturbing, intruding, disrupting.
no matter how much they insist otherwise.

more and more, the notion of self-centredness is becoming obvious.
people, by nature, care more about themselves than anyone else.
and trying to change this natural order always leaves me in such a sad state.

have i really no real friends anymore.
how many reading this blog (my friends) actually know anything thats happening with me.

and then it boils down to the real question.

how many actually care.