happy birthday AMIN.

love ya!
and sorry for the late wishes.
fatigue gets to you sometimes man.

if you are wondering what i did on thursday.

too good to be true.

oh my god.
the way people colour their words.
intelligent.

emo.

thatz how my posts are going to be.
because i am pmsing.
and zeinab, seriously, there was no connection.
:)

i am sick of this looks obsessed, shallow world.
i am sick of the way i need attention.
i am sick of people who need to put others down to make them feel better.
i am sick of people who pick on flaws.
i am sick of it all.
if only the world was filled with flowers and optimism.
i will belong.

don't.

tear my illusions apart.
for in my world, i am perfect.

SOWMIE, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

we may not meet, but you still make a great friend.
and i will never forget the times you were there for me, and the times we've shared.
love ya!
:D

CS 105

needs me to work my ass off.

you do.

you do make me smile.
the next time someone picks a fight with you, think wisely, my fellow friends.
for it may be a game.

sanctity of life.

suicide.
18th floor.
my block.
of all places.
discomfort.

happy family.

cherubim charlatan after all.

intellectual teaser.

someone tell me why i like that description.

alhamdulillah

i havent gotten over it.
HAHA.

meeting the barb.

rabbits may have bad luck this yr, but they're cute.ha.

shady.thanks to the indian guy who spotted the damsels in distress. ha.

it was too little time and too many words with barb!as usual! :D
it was fun though, the vivovitying. yet again. but it was barb's first time! we should do it again soon!

bitches.

should be eradicated.
it is hard to describe how i feel.

oh by the way, if you feel a cold coming on, just SLEEP!
cos it sure helped me!

it matters to me.

apart from the fun, the happiness, and the sun-tanning, there is one more thing that happened yesterday.

the feeling of clearing the air with someone is great.
when you know first impressions dont and shouldnt last, and that beyond that, the human heart is such that it will learn to forget, forgive and move on.

:D

captain's ball

woke up with a bloody sore throat.
and this is like my first time.

sucked.

with a captains ball game at hand.
it was fun, though there is no victory to talk of.
it was a learning experience.
and sometimes it is just the feeling of it all that matters. :)
kudos to us!
and to our NTU seniors, and the SIM people!
who spurred us on, and advised us.
the classic was when we were playing against the NTU seniors.
and when i was defending the goalie, she was giving me tips.
thanks guys, it was a wonderful experience!
and of course, there was the random meeting with meh.

haha. *hugs*
and hema, thanks for the help darling!

and noorul, mahes, kayal, anu, kalai, rohini, it has been a wonderful journey!
we will be back next year, right?!
:D

apart from the fatigue, it feels greeeaaaattt!

i need to.

get over you.
let you go.
stop comparing.
stop missing you.
move on.

multiple personalities disorder.

no, i dont have it.
i am me.

that is the name of the stand-up comedy i went to watch.
by hossan leong.
stand-up comedians draw on the prejudices of the society and turn them funny.
and hossan sure did a good job.
it was his last one, so i am glad i got to catch it man!
went with darling kav, which made for a goood play and gooood company!
:D

and haha. kav. thanks for the photos!

MOS, Vivo.

well, i went clubbing on Wednesday.
haha. just in time for my erm, success. :D

ok, everyone knows i was really looking forward to it.
cos i havent clubbed in AGES.
since last july, actually.
july 8th.
:)

hm. maybe the expectations were there.
maybe i knew what i wanted it to be like.
no offence, the company was NOT BAD.
thank you guys, for trying to gimme the best experience possible.

BUT, anu and kav. please club with me soon?
i wana go to either Bumble Bee or Gotham!
or mahes. or someone. you get the picture.
OR MY SISTERS.
please la. hahahaa.
yall are not too old. seriously.
kkekeke.

oh and i went to Vivo with Anu yesterday. going out with Anu is ALWAYS fun!
:D

and fear leads to phobia.

Ablutophobia- Fear of washing or bathing.

i wish you and those around you good luck.

Agateophobia- Fear of insanity.

i fear, along with you.

Alliumphobia- Fear of garlic.

watchugonnado if a vampire comes at you?

Altophobia- Fear of heights.

i hope you're not too tall.

Anuptaphobia- Fear of staying single.

anu, i am sorry it had to start with your name!


look out for more in time to come.

=}

what's your fear?

Fear is a basic human emotion. It can be defined as an unpleasant feeling of risk or danger, either real or imagined.

Psychologists such as John B. Watson and Paul Ekman have argued that fear, along with a few other emotions such as joy and anger, are innate in all human beings. Fear is a defensive, survival advantage, and may have evolved in a variety of organisms

thanks to wikipedia.

there are so many different kinds.

birds, cockroaches, heights, worms, snakes. you name it, they've got it.

i have a huge problem with flying cockroaches.

A HUGE ONE.

but bees have a problem with me.

i mean, it is not my fault that i resemble a flower. :D

YAY

haha. i parked.
successfully, might i add.
my first, and not my last, i hope.

:D

EUPHORIA.

haha. those who know, know why.

i am SO BLOODY HAPPY.

but still, it kinda is upsetting. when people start saying it is luck.

i admit, it plays a part. but no one bypasses challenges in life with mere luck.

thanks val, for making me see that the possibility of me failing was higher actually, since i didn't follow a basic safety procedure.

something i really wanted.

my journey has been quite surreal.

i jumped into into it without knowing what i was in for. jumped into the bandwagon, probably.

never really bothered about it in the beginning.

but i love it now.
really do.
:D

thanks for the support, the encouragement, the money(PA!)

it might seem like making a mole out of a molehill. after all, half the country drives.
but this means so so much to me.
:)

strength.

the strength of relationships, lie in their ability to forgive.

playgrounds.

what happened to the see-saws?

what happened to the swings?

what happened to the sand?

what happened to the good ol' playgrounds of singapore?

it is so sad to see these boring, colorless playgrounds today.

what is the point?

to ensure that the "GEMS" of today dont fall and hurt themselves?

what is happening? children are becoming so sheltered, and so very pampered.

i admit, i am pampered to an extent. but what i see coming ahead, is far worse.

the rudeness, the arrogance, the disrespect, the laziness, the complacence, the apathy.

i shudder.

i have a dream.

am i allowed to?
i am not martin luther king!
HAHA.

i have a dream, that harry potter will appear in my room with a wand and slay all dragons in the names of assignments, tests, tutorials, boring tutorials, bibliographies.
yes thank you harry potter.
i heard you are gonna be looking grown up in your new book/movie.

as of now, i havent even opened the two books for 816.
did an interview with my sis, for 105, that unfortunately, shockingly and surprisingly only lasted freaking 7 bloody minutes.
DAMN.
gotta redo it in a bit.
studied almost half of 105.
and yes, i still have to transcibe the interview.
and i have captains ball tmr.
so if i sleep late tonight and dont have enough sleep, i can sleep on friday night.
but guess wat? i have driving lesson early on saturday morning.
i say i am pushing myself!

haha. maximising my potential.
RIGHT.

khad, dont think you are reading this, but hope you get better!!!

PS: val and jun, thanks a lot for understanding and giving me the lesser of the devil. :D

am i gullible, cheatable, and plain dumb?
seriously considerable qns man!

this world is selfish. it really is. how am i gonna survive?

eradicate SAP schools, i say.

singapore apparently has conflicting national policies and education policies.
if you allow SAP schools to exist, where the hell does racial and religious harmony go?

what do they do on racial harmony day i wonder?

sit around and laugh about how indians run around coconut trees?
imitate the way a mat talks?

what are SAP schools trying to prove?

it irritates me, there is a limit to funny when you are making racist jokes in front of me.
don't cross the line i say.

watch me.

haha.
the irony.
for someone who uses the net for social networking as much as i do, this is blardy funnie.
keke.

check it out.

http://www.bobricci.com/sbm.htm

the week to come.

the week to come, is a rather interesting one.
i would love to see my grades for the two quizzes.
for it will be a testimony of my time management, or lack thereof.
haha.

did i happen to mention that my 104 group is damn fun?
hehe. well i just did.

plus, 816 is not that bad when you are searching for chocolate.
this sem is difficult to be enthusiastic about.

but the people make all the difference, i say.
and, i am glad i am doing drama and performance to break the monotony of it all.
acting keeps you in an entire different world.
i really hope i get to act in paparazzi.
ahem ahem.
:p

and Rayn keeps him going. hehehhehehehehe. seriously, that is the reaction i give when i think of him. plus the salivation.
i am no cannibal, but you gotta realise how delicious he looks. hahahhaha.
my cute little sweet handsome precious imp of a boy.

jiggly jal.

this is a super random post.

i miss dancing.
really really miss dancing.
and i feel like i have so much to say, and yet, i dont know what i want to say.

my sis told me that i like being so busy.
and that is when i realised, despite the complaints and the stress, i love it.
it gives you no time to pause, to think, to stop.

it is nice.
maybe that is why i like to study, cos it makes sure i am occupied.
unless you give me a subject like 108. which i absolutely dont wana study.
i wana improve gradually.
God, please give me at least 2 As this sem. i promise i will work for it.

MOOOO.

i liikkkeee ben and jerrys!