stuffed.

haha. i am supposed to be starving during fasting month. but i am so bloody stuffed now. we went to riverwalk tandoor. a 15 dollar buffet. but they were all heavy dishes. not suitable for a buffer. i mean, why would u wana take lamb /chicken/rice over and over again rite?

but haha. being the snackgirl, i took the indian sweets. hahahaha. am very sleepy cos ate so much. he he. hm. went with both my sisters. my preggie sis looks so pregnant!haha. and pregnant women are always beautiful! =)) we went to mothercare to get her stuff. haha. soooo cute the stuff there. baby clothes just make u smile dont they. fret not, thatz how small we all were ONCE UPON A TIME. hehe.

saw rags at marina square. haha. he is one person i keep bumping into. his girlfren was having a makeover at the bodyshop thing and he was waiting for her. haha then she whipped out her cam and took a pic for both of us. although i have noen him for 6 yrs, i only have one pic of him!haha.

oh well. we were so near the clubs. haiz. miss clubbing. sorely sorely miss the attention. haha. i mean i dun get that much of it, but u noe who's watching. especially at gotham. hehehehe. soooooo fun! i wana goooo!

well well. i am gonna go ahead and continue my 101. oh, i have started!hehehehe.
will be working both saturday and sunday..so gotta try and finish it up man!well. see ya!

promiscuous girl.

Promiscuous girl
Wherever you are
I’m all alone
And it's you that I want

N: Promiscuous boy
You already know
That I’m all yours
What you waiting for?

Promiscuous girl
You're teasing me
You know what I want
And I got what you need

N: Promiscuous boy
Let's get to the point
Cause we're on a roll
Are you ready?

dun bother figuring out what that means. haha.
hmm. today was half a tiring, half a fulfilling day.
woke up with jun's sms about her ABSURD dream. hehe thank god it wasnt MY dream. :P
then went for project meeting. at raffles city starbucks. haha, i did crave for my fav iced hazelnut latte. i miss working there. :( well well. i remember everything!i am not too rustyyy.
then after that, i wanted to go shop shop cos i just bought tights. and i wanted to get a denim skirt.

but i was way too drained. so i went home. and instead of sleeping, guess what i ended up doing?camming. hahahaha. oh well. i was a bit energised after that. and i went to the lib after that, where anu alr was. met her after really long!haha. i went there and totally disrupted her studying. just finished the 101 article today. actually the assignment is not that much of a big deal la.

hmm. then we proceeded to have dinner at telok blangah crescent hawker centre. they have the best mee goreng there!!serious. haha. wat a great dinner. many many calories though. and being the snacky me, i bought kaya cake and ate after that. haha.
then we went tiong bahru! and i bought a skirt!but it is not a denim skirtt though! haha. those in sch, u will see it soon!haha actually the woman asked me to buy a top along with it, but it was wayy too expensive.. and i looked like a act cute(black) jap girl.

haha.

oh well, i am honestly tired today. and i am in no mood to entertain weird REQUESTS. haiz.

u noe the feeling of longing for someone so badly?

tired.

proud of myself man!6th post and i am going strong!
haha.
and, i played captain ball today!
i only broke fast with water and dates. (fruit, not human form) haha.
and in the end i only had one curry puff and pau.

haha. i want tolose weight!
hope this is helping man!
ya. i managed to resist temptation today, with help. if u r curious about what i am toking about, ask me aiite?

i think i am camming excessively nowadays. and i noe i should be doin something for my 111 meeting tmr. but here i am online.
and i should finish reading that damn article la!101!haiz.
but itz ok, i can do it tmr. and i tink i wana stay up and read the article.

hm, had a real short 102 meeting today, but everything seems on track..and much credit goes to jared for that! =)

gonna have dinner with anu tmr!we havent toked for so long, but then again, no matter how often we tok, it always seems like that!
haha thatz what happens with close frens!
anu is like family to meeee! =))

i bought a burger for sahur. (and for those who dont understand..itz the unearthly wee hours during which we gorge ourselves with food to sustain us the whole day) hehe.

i think the 7-11 guy thinks i go in for him. keke. he smiles at me though.

captainball was fun!!!weee!although anu and kalai din come..those ppl are really funny man!damn fun to play with. we played a bt of soccer too. oh and i ran 3 rounds b4 playing 1 and a half hours of captain ball!

not bad jal. for a fasting girl. ;)

oh man. too many ppl are gonna fall in love with me WHEN i lose weight. hahahahhahahaha.
;)

ok la.. i tired to type alr!will catch up tmr!
au revoir et bonne nuit. a bientot.

good start, jal

my mummy baby. haha. i used to squeeze her!

not bad!i have been continuously writing for more than a day!better than i expected. hehe.

well..i should be doing my project stuff now. but i have been sneezing non stop. and since i can't drink or eat, the only form of medicine i can think of is sleep. but if i sleep, i cant do my project stuff. argh. blame econs for opportunity cost. dam, i miss econs so much!! to think that i hated in the beginning of JI. hehe. shows that hatred is not permanent. kekekeke.

well well, this morning(or was it afternoon?haha) i really din feel like getting up. i was depressed. really. it's that feeling where i know my mum should be with me. and she isnt here. every single holiday, she was there. but now i have passed june 2005 and december 2005 without her. i am glad i worked during my 10 month break. staying at home during holidays without mum is tortuous. really. cos there are so many memories within these four walls. although she was only with us for 2 yrs plus in this house. i do have memories with her. man, i remember how happy i would be when i thought she wouldnt be at home but her slippers are outside. and how happy i would be to here her signature dragging of her slippers outside my home when she is coming back from marketing(probably buying some kinda snacks for her pampered children) i miss her soooo much. quite obviously, it cannot be expressed in words. msged my sis in the morning and told her. and she said she feels it too. especially in the fasting month. now we have no one to whip up all those fantastic meals. and unfortunately, no one to carry on her culinary legacy :(

while everyone is gonna be awaiting the feast every evening, i will be cracking my head on where to eat! and, i do have a maid yes. but breaking fast with her cooking does not appeal to me. not even a bit. i dun want her to lay out the food for me. wherez mummy?!



well. well. mummy is in heaven!enjoying all the chocolates and ice cream that she couldnt have on earth cos of her diabetes. my cute mum! argh. okies, stop now jal.

i think i will go back to sleep, cos i really dun feel very cognitively alert.

but i am not een sleepy. man. haha. well well. see ya later!

nocturnal

this is not healthy jal. haha. like i dun noe.

no point la. i like sleeping late. hm, it makes me feel peaceful. the night is serene. really. the quiet has almost medicinal quality. hm. night is a good time to reflect. unfortunately, when i reflect when i am PMSing, the reflection is cast on an ugly mirror. that ONLY shows bad things. flaws. imperfections. well, thank god. i am not PMSing now.

well. well. hm. i am sleepy, really. feel my eyes closing. actually, i wanted to say. i am so irritated with myself. u noe, after talking to him yesterday, i almost feel addicted, i am fine not toking to him for a long time, but once i tok to him, itz like i wana tok to him every damn day. damm.

and that, trust me, is not a good thing. it is not good to be dependent on anyone other than ur family. really. i mean yes i trust my close frens. but no offence, i think that at the end of the day, ur family is gonna dig ur ass out of the shit.

hm. today was funny. every single person i met said i look like i have lost weight. hm. well, i defininitely dun feel it. one day of fasting CANNOT make a difference. i really do hope i lose though. but the thing aboutlosing weight while fasting is that. HARI RAYA. and bam!it all comes back. haha. itz like a "eat like u have never eaten before" kinda day u noe. somehow, everyones culinary skills just shine on that day. hehe.

hm. i noe it is kinda boring without fotos. but i will get round that soon. haha. then therez no stopping my fans from creating a fan club. and in case thatz what u are thinking, i am NOT deluded in any way, at any time of the day. :P

haha. i ramble a lot. thatz why i hate typin. but i should type, since zeinab claims my typing is slower than hers (which it is not, i reiterate) i must prove to her that it is not. haha. well. well.
i shall go off soon. and i am actually webcamming with someone. but we are both doing our own stuff. he is cute, but unfortunately, i can hardly see anything. itz really dark. i can only see the tissue he is using, dammit!

haha.
well, lemme end of with a "poem" that i wrote in the spur of the moment quite a long time ago. itz something like a goodnite message..

as today fades away,
it gives rise to yet another beautiful day.
afresh we shall start,
allowing the bad of yester days to part.
renewing our energies,
and regaining our inner peace,
we look ahead.
for, the wonders of the day to come have been left unsaid.

:)

rise and shine

well. i just got up a while ago. actually got up while it was still morning, but couldnt get my lazy ass off the bed.

supposed to meet val to go threading!haha. for the sole reason that bushes are not supposed to grow where eyebrows are supposed to be. hehe.

well well, got nothing much to do after that. i noe i should be doing some sort of work, but i really wana treat this as a real HOLIDAY! i wana SLACK!argh. someone, motivate me!

i only slept at 4 plus this morning.. hm..won't take a genius to noe what i was doing.i was on the fone..with someone i dun tok to all that often, and who makes me laugh like crazy. i always laugh like crazy..but not everyone makes u laugh the same way, do u get it?

hm..and when i was talking to him, i was being bitchy at first. and i noe i din sound very normal..i could feel it..and he wasnt used to it...and i found myself telling him that i am sick of being nice. although thatz not a good thing. but as we continued toking, and hm.. we actually toked for about 6 hours. crazy. i became a bit friendlier, and hehe. we had as much fun as usual.

do u believe that when two people talk to each other everyday, the sizzle fizzles out? i really dunno, cos when i tok to this person once a month, we always have very good conversations. well, i really dun remember how it was to have someone to tok to everyday.. itz been long. and i dun noe if i want it to stay that way.

well, hehe. someting tells be val will be late, but so am i. i should move my ass.

later!

crazy.

ok. this is crazy. i wanted to jump on the bandwagon and start a blog, but ta-da!i did create one! haha. oh well. so now i know when i pierced my nose. hehe.

well. today is the first day of fasting. haha, it would be good to start it off doing a good deed. But, here i am, "updating" my blog. it is a pseudo-good deed. oh well.

but i cooked today!the real reason is cos i would hate to break my first fast with something my maid cooked. i am totally totally against her now. God, grant me the heart to accept her!

i cooked fried rice. not my first time, but i am still an amateur. its my third time. first time was great, but second time sucked. my family members, being the ever sweet people they are, still finished it! hehe, and the funny thing is, they kept complimenting the rice cos my maid was around, and they didn't want her to think my cooking was worse than hers. hehe, so sweet! and oh, by the way, i cooked fried rice.

and my dad ate it! he is not fasting cos he has to take medication. and he loved it!yay!he did say it was a bit oily, but he took two servings, and he has a small appetite, mind u! :)

haha. can't wait to taste my own masterpiece man! will update later about how delicious it is!

and other than that, i just wana say how unlucky i am cos i wana keep this blog away from my sisters, cos there are some things that will be weird telling ur sisters, but my sister popped in while i was reading this.

and though she doesnt noe the add, she noes i have a blog. and THAT is not a good start. haha.

oh well, guess i will be practising some sort of self-censorship just in case.

and that means whoever reading this will not know what really is happening :P and i am postively assuming that u are interested to noe. how optimistic~

okie, thatz it for now!